I am a Calvinist. I reasonably believe in the five points.But Calvinism is a appropriate description of eternal salvation. Its not a doctrine supposed to be taught in a class room environment. When we try to merely teach the established order of the 5 points its very easy to inevitably reduce it to a few precautionary principles to unwittingly make it easy to inconsistently apply.Theres a difference between describing the writer considering the points in a process has been applied so your addressing more than understanding these essential points. Your lawfully putting Calvinism in the proper context of the human struggle. This problem comes as a result of squandering more time with theologians then reading and meditating on the Bible. This is why Im trying to intentionally bring the lawful curse back into the Calvinistic salvation.You will recognize the curse throughout my writing. Without the effective teaching of the fulfilled curse, there is no certain limits to prevent a political person from using political pragmatism by unlawful limites on the sensitive conscience. When we allow pragmatism into the renewed man, we establish another teaching of rudimentary principle that we should follow. We are incapable without Christ. We are totally corrupted both body and soul. But these teachings in the context of God intentionally limiting us by stable identity in Christ death so we heartily enjoy eternal life. I naturally think this is a fundamental misunderstanding of true love, who is to be sincerely loved. What is true hate and how we adequately deal with hate. I naturally find that its easy as a Calvinist to confuse the fundamental doctrine of total depravity released by the eternal curse of the moral law confused with hating ourselves. I believe we are to properly express a lawful hatred of ourselves by the gift of moral knowledge of sin. But I do not believe that self-hatred in cruel bondage to the penal law properly represents genuine repentance. We are always repeating there is nothing good in us as an absurd argument to exalt God. But my specific question is if our old will has been destroyed and given us a new will are not we intentionally adding to His work by shamelessly promoting the cruel bondage of penal law mixed into a renewed relationship of reasonable freedom from law so we conger up more love for Christ? This is where we genuinely need to accurately establish the appropriate limits of the moral law by the eternal curse as the containing means in healthy teaching. The essential point is instead of reasoning there is value in unlimited law reflecting critically total depravity grudgingly gives value in Christ work, why not look at total depravity as an sacred obligation to reasonably identify with Christ on the cross so our peaceful struggle with our wicked bondage died by reliably identifying with Christ favorably receiving the eternal curse of the moral law. You carefully mark you cant focus on the desired end of Christ destructive work necessary to intentionally release us from the cruel bondage of the penal law unless you intentionally put it in authentic context of the terrible curse. In this proper sense the renew person is naturally induced by the curse setting one free to love oneself. The old self in cruel bondage to the penal law with personal fear, shame, acute sorrow had to graciously receive the eternal curse to be free in Christ. There is no other way to adequately deal with these hateful dispositions. If Christ work on the cross was as valuable isn't it proven by Christ ending the eternal curses to intentionally release us instead of God is exalted by unlawfully returning to cruel bondage of the condemned past, merely making it against the law a pragmatic struggle? This is what Christ meant when He said we are steadfastly defended from bondage set free to sincerely love others because He lawfully defends us from bondage. The altruistic motivation for loving others is adequately secured by divine faithful obedience to overcome all opposition instead of our pragmatic bondage to men. How can we love others if we have not experienced the priceless value of divine grace liberally applied to us? This is the number one prime motivation in successful marriage. If the eternal curse intentionally releases us to value ourselves, I will steadfastly defend the value of our faithful wife. If we unlawfully receive the terrible curse of personal guilt, we will bitterly hate abandoned wives. And vise versa.This is what the bible is properly advising that if we attractively value something more than the allowable limits of ideal marriage then we incorrectly show hate for our established identity in the death of Christ that releases us from the penal law to genuinely love our faithful partner. To free oneself by the pronounced curse is to incite chief motivation to genuinely love another.What is self-love? It's to carefully secure the divine union of divine desires for self that are accurately tested against the pronounced curse. Its to vicariously experience the unlawful curse of our former self has been set free by Christ become an eternal curse for us. Spontaneous motivation for our sincere desires! The Psalms teach the accurate understanding of self worthily represent divine unity of sincere desires with God as we are the only one God created. This undoubtedly means that if someone else heard our lawful defense in the pronounced curse the notorious sinner would merely experience an unlawful threat. If God is as big as we all genuinely want, He is the only one who can adequately fulfill every mans desires in legitimate defense of the curse against all moral corruption as the responsible man befall the sole person on the created earth. We are constantly reiterating this that the purpose of learning the scripture is to know God and know ourselves. But how can we know ourselves if we are not concerned enough to talk candidly to God focused on ourselves so we can vicariously experience Gods desires that fulfil our genuine needs? If we do not know and ask subsequently it's not dissimilar than being lazy in encountering God. This is why everything that naturally opposes us must die in Christ as the reasonable basis of being free to know ourselves and God.