Once again I come running to my Heavenly Father genuinely wanting to unburden the crushing load.Why is this birthing pain to intentionally leave my ideal loves and heart idols aggressively pushing out unspeakable joy for temporary loves. Such fierce struggles like specific gravity pulling from eternity, swallows up the tension. Christ alone or not at all. I genuinely feel the joy beyond any constrain of utmost joy. Hither endure the earthly existence I long passionately; a mighty grip of His gracious hands reaching down from eternity to hold those dreadful constraints. My unshakable faith nevertheless recognize Him to be more than all. Oh what a precious Savior, the God of all Glory, devoted lover of my soul, that I may carefully pour those spices in my cup, eagerly sharing in His suffering and fellowship with Him.

Hours of meditation promptly relieve tension of self, indulgence and pain. A deep river of joy intentionally floods the soul with inconceivable loves and graces. Suspending all prevalent earthly connections intentionally drives me into transcendent moods and extraordinary enlightened raptures. How can I explain heavenly mindedness but by deeper longings, more extensive experiences of glories until Christ is complete in me? How can God share such love with a totally depraved person?What a mysterious union with Christ. Love ends are Gods purposes for my soul. His love faithfully represents a deep river of instant coolness to an inflamed temper. Oh God of all glory astonishes me with such delightful raptures, engulf my feeble body until I encounter you in glory. What other physical condition is worth the lavish expenditure.

 Meditation represents sweet reflection on the Glory of God. The magnificent fountain of life flowing out of me, enraptured in heavens realities. Instantly reviving extraordinary power in me, bending my will through continuous waves of irresistible longings for my Savior. The pleasant smell of an autumn day with fragrant flowering of love budding in my soul. The angels wings breeze enrapturing my soul to appreciate spiritual blessing. Meditation is pondering and praying earnestly to grip my soul.  

 I am on the mountain overlooking lakes, miles and miles of forest.The day is serene, sitting on a rock breathing in the mountain air. Its quiet of city noises, the familiar sound of gentle wind can be heard. Deep desires and panting after God are directing my pleasant thoughts.I retreat into the meditations collecting in my mind. Closing my eyes into a world of supreme joy and peace. The heavenly experience in gracious delights of the Glory of God. I have gone away a short time longing to experience eternity.