During my thirty successful years of psalm prayer, I have twice experienced the combined economic loss of all. But my defeat was a prestigious trophy to my eternal salvation. If you are desperately looking for something more important than anything else in this ideal world of suffering, you intend to win it as tangible proof that it is worth it. And then it became reason enough for more courage. Unusual wounds in the brutal war and approved medals were an unusual type of similar suffering. Apparently it made me more courageous to enjoy the sacred secret of everything with all my heart. In fact, I have experienced a less sentimental, almost unwanted thing in this political world, which has experienced the personal loss of all things. To the extent that God intended to burn, His true love for me through sufficient maneuver to make many losses to see more of His gain. I also regret that I only know others who are too attached to the things of this impossible world. On this spiritual path I am motivated by the meditations of the psalms. Like waves of a unique experience followed by consuming the ideal world. It was a rare experience to feel isolated from the transitional part of this pagan world. I call this the overcoming of the holy mysteries of God. Like heaven, which usually comes to us from the distant future. We felt that we really wanted to be immersed in the mysterious experience of our sincere joys in this dark world that will be even greater on the new earth. I feel that God has made me a noble warrior in my great defeat. He encouraged me to seek Him sincerely, not with work, but with wonderful gifts.