I never lived to think about my works; which are fine. I mean as much as James talks about respecting the poor through nonprofits. But I never felt comfortable in this false religious environment. I cursed for 40 years. I couldn't stand the fakes.If there is anyone who would be proud of his good works, it would be me. You know, haven't I ever felt truly worthy of one of these works? I never thought of that. I faced everything, including my success through the curse. I hated hypocrisy.Just like self-defense. I lived as if a nine to five jobs with a woman at home was below my honor. I absolutely thought it was selfish. My family sold themselves to help others. I never had an American dream.It was not up to me.
Most people never allow God to completely free them from their own identity. I didn't have separate occupations like working at home, etc. Everything was one. Focused on non-pragmatic relationships. I hired more and never reacted to the pressure.Totally not of itself. We live in peace in a realm much larger than this wicked world. In this kingdom, all the homeless and the abused suffer. And these desperate people never have much face value for this fake world. But the eternal kingdom of God is upside down out of order.There is a real spiritual realm in this ideal world. I have met so many free people who have probably won nothing. I was so humbled that my relative freedom in Christ could not match the pious Christians who suffer willfully. I am forever indebted to my influential leaders who were far more extraordinary than me. In the eternal kingdom you must be greatly reduced to remain undoubtedly a useless servant of God.You must undoubtedly become the minimum. Embark on a journey of aesthetic pleasure with God until you are completely stripped of yourself. And then you entrust everything to Him voluntarily, that's a Christian. When you sincerely seek God, he easily becomes your greatest pleasure.This aesthetic pleasure will be rigorously tested against your comparable value in this inspired world. God correctly captures the passionate heart before properly administering the final test. And when your faithful heart is with Him, carefully loosen your greedy hands and kindly allow Him to receive your personal success.