I think when we think of personal despair, and we are just talking about the emotional depth of the soul, being affected by sad despair or grace, replacing severe weakness and despair. Of course, no feelings can be trusted. The terrible darkness of an accepting heart, the omnipresent feeling of overwhelming fear and sad helplessness. There are indeed silence and darkness beyond the reach of other physical pain.
This unusual attitude is obviously nowhere to be found except for an emergency call for help. Of course there is no sense of despair to be trusted. Apart from encouragement, there is nothing to say. And in these weeping days and nights, perhaps the cloudy sky will inevitably awaken the hope of that aching heart, and forcefully dispel the emptiness and darkness. In the desperate cry, there was a glimmer of hope. As soon as God hides, despair disappears. 

Self-determination and self-confidence. There is a significant difference between the inner cry of a confident person and the inner cry of a desperate person. A desperate person realizes that the call for help will only end with the return of despair, and may even be deeper, so the call for help can be said to lead to more complete despair.This experience may permeate human physics, bringing helplessness deeper into the heart through a desperate experience.
I mean, when you start to despair and think that this is all they have, then you start to feel pain because of this despair, and cries out to God for help and forgiveness, but then the experience begins. Despair has just begun, and then you become depressed, because you feel more desperate, so you kind of increase your sense of helplessness. It is worth noting that this decline caused a deeper cry in the heart. More sincere cries. The apparent sincerity of crying usually corresponds to a certain degree of despair.
In meditation, you can feel what happens when a person falls into the abyss of despair, and God advises him not to believe in himself. In meditation, the focus is very much on Christ as the Savior, and the result is that the emotional level of despair evokes the terrible consciousness of an overwhelming response to the sad cries of sensitive people, making this desperate response even more supernatural. The supernatural element in extreme despair inevitably comes from the indomitable attention to Christ in the Bible, and Christ becomes more important than despair. Although God has nothing to brag about this supernatural nourishment in despair, and his persistence convinced him not to rely on his own feelings, in despair, it is more important to keep feeling right. The promises of God written for those shouting and focusing really nourish a desperate person, as if they were underwater. 

 Take oxygen from the bottle and continue to live in despair, insist on one word too much, insist on every promise, seek salvation, and wait for Christ to tell us about the world. About all these things, vagueness comes from a deep sense of despair. Even if we don’t have him, he will support us. What he teaches is just a lesson in faith, how to learn in a coma.There are more invisible and insensitive feelings, narrower human thinking, narrow love, and despair make people often meditate. If Christ becomes so anti-historical, he will fall into greater despair.