Surrendering is being taken from one place to another by a force that is too great to overcome. It isnt deciding to move but its being moved upon. Its not even thinking that there was a need to overcome a problem so that there was a trust that would be achieved by the great attempt. Surrendering is far above the imagination to experience what it really is. Most of the desperation of this life is not directly connected to our ability or lack of ability to learn to surrender. We only know what we think is surrender because we experience a kind of human imagination of the most noble attempt.
Thats why surrender cannot be attempted by a human being. It must be a place that we find that has no connection to our own ability. It is that experience where we have a long pause and then a movement of experience that brings our thinking as if we were peering into a new idea and yet only find more questions. It is being taken by a sense of wonder at something we cannot describe in human terms. Because we cannot surrender in harming ourselves in the excessive focus on finding that we have achieved something in return. If you jump off into the air you will dash yourself with many pains.
Surrender in finding a sense of other. It is being overcome by something that is near. It is not an idea that we put into practice but it is a communication of otherness to what we only have limited knowledge of what otherness is. This is why we have no ability to decide to surrender. Because we are talking about the desires between beings in communication of spiritual realities. In the presence of the weight of greater ability we find no other option. Surrender is finding a far greater glory that meets our view of looking on a Person as we are brought to only see a very small light of glory as we are brought under its power. There is nothing else that we can do.

We look at Jesus and we pray. Then we are only left with silence. But we know we have experienced something beyond this time sequence. We have gone away and we have been taken by someone and walked hand in hand into eternity. There is no one else around... just Him. There is a great danger because of where we have come from as we look back at this world. But it is too much attraction to want to go back there... in that ugly world. We dont want to leave eternity. There is no other powers that are pulling us down. We are like the man who had this other experience and this man has a look on his face ...its a puzzled look and in his eyes he has this blank stare as if he cannot put enough effort in masking what he has just experienced. He has been blinded to all of the attractions to this world. He has been silenced. There is something other than what people talk about that is filling his mind even when he talks. He sees something that he cannot describe in his attempt to connect what he knows they need because he knows something that he cannot put into words. He has been somewhere that has no definition in this world.