I find it frustrating at times that I cannot wholeheartedly seek Him—my mind so easily distracted from meditating on His Word and His presence. I do not delight in holding conflicting truths, yet I believe with all my heart that Christ has atoned for my sins, and still I am called to turn away from sin and pursue righteousness. God’s love for us is not based on anything we possess or any achievement we accomplish; it is rooted solely in His sovereign grace—trustworthy, unwavering, and infinite. Though my body grows weak and my strength diminishes, I still pray the Psalms for healing, trusting in His mercy and compassion. Why must we endure suffering in old age? Because ultimately, the debt of sin is death. Life, fleeting and fragile, is but a brief moment—a flicker in the eternal timeline—an opportunity to seek God’s Word, to meditate on His truths day and night. When we look back from eternity, we will see how trivial all our pursuits once seemed—those pursuits that once occupied our minds and hearts will fade away as meaningless. In light of eternity, only our relationship with God and our pursuit of His kingdom matter. Therefore, we must prepare ourselves for death, understanding that this life is insignificant compared to the vast, infinite expanse of eternity awaiting us. Reflect for a moment on the frailty of human figures—Adam and Eve, who rebelled against God's command; Jacob, whose deception caused strife; Noah, who drank excessively and faltered as a leader; Samson, whose strength was lost through love for foreign women; David, whose passions led to murder and adultery; and even the apostles, who faltered in their faith—some resorted to violence against fellow believers. Peter, entrusted with leadership, struggled with prejudice; Onesimus, a runaway slave, defaulted on his debts. Why do we continue to sin? Because, at our core, we are fallen creatures—sinners by nature. If salvation depended solely on the saints’ ability to abstain from sin, then why would we stand in such urgent need of Christ’s atoning sacrifice? Every sin we commit is not merely a mistake or a moment of weakness; it is a direct offense—a curse—against the holiness of God. Sin, at its root, is an act of cursing the Creator Himself—an offense so severe that it warrants death. Yet, out of boundless love, Christ became a curse for us, bearing the weight of our sins and their consequences, offering redemption where condemnation once reigned. God’s love for us is divine and irresistible—a love that calls us to Himself no matter our circumstances. The Apostle Paul, who once persecuted the church, famously called himself the chief of sinners, and I often feel like a broken soul, always in need of mercy and grace. The Psalms have been my refuge—lifting me to moments of transcendence where I can hear God speaking to my heart, responding with a simple, trusting ‘yes.’ Through His Word, He reveals truths that guide me—truths about my health, my purpose, and my path—truths I would never have discovered on my own. It is through the Bible that we come to know a personal, loving God—one who desires intimacy with us. Loving God means loving His Word, treasuring it as the very voice of His love. Over years of meditating on Scripture—memorizing verses, reflecting on their meaning—I learned to listen for His voice as if He were speaking directly to me. I immersed myself in biblical teachings, engaged with seminary courses online, sought silence and solitude, trusting that in those quiet moments, God would impress His Word upon my heart—like a gentle whisper, a warm embrace. It brought me deep joy—a divine warmth in my chest—a taste of intimate fellowship with the Creator.