I find myself in a state of internal conflict. This particular phase of my life has presented strong temptations to compensate for past failures by adding various elements to it. I have not fully embraced the American notion of strict discipline as a means to attain happiness. Throughout my life, I have constantly strived to simplify and avoid complications. However, lately, the temptation to succumb to societal pressures and pursue materialistic goals has become a relentless battle. I am deeply discontented with myself and yearn for the weakening of these temptations. I strongly dislike those who idolize material possessions and instead value the simplicity of life. I am committed to self-sacrifice, even when it becomes challenging, and rely on divine intervention. Despite practicing this principle for 25 years, I am beginning to realize that even my acts of giving cannot be the sole basis of my trust. I am perplexed by the abundance of philosophical ideas in our world and the prevalence of conformity to cultural norms. Many individuals seem to fall into the trap of deistic thinking, and I wonder where the simplicity of life has disappeared to. I long for a life of solitude, contemplation, and sincere prayers for God's presence, lest we fall into the trap of idol worship. I am determined to fight relentlessly, even when exhausted, and persistently seek divine intervention. I am reminded of the serenity I experienced during moments of meditation and the overwhelming feeling of being loved and filled with spiritual energy. I question why people choose to embrace paths that seem right to them without critical examination.