I am just as passionate about the destruction of everything that does not glorify God as I am about everything that is saving and graceful in this world. I am just as angry in my disposition towards the things of dominance in this world as I am in love with the freedom of the gospel. This is way too big for me, so I often feel like a fake. Sometimes I feel tossed around and unable to come to a resolution. God seems to be asleep and unwavering in His comfort to me, which makes me feel like a complete fake. I find that I get worn out trying to find Him. Plus, I am subject to being so depressed and burdened that I can't get a day of peace.What makes life difficult is not only that we have to deal with our own personal struggles, but also the ways that other people's choices can impact us negatively. It can be hard to keep going when we feel like we're constantly being pulled down by the weight of the world. Sometimes it feels like the only way to cope is to put up a front and pretend everything is okay. But even that can be exhausting, and it's easy to feel like we're just fooling ourselves.How can anything happen in this world to bring comfort accept a temporary escape to pleasure that mask pain for a time? You know? God hears me! Like when i complain to others and they say I hear you! Thank God that He doesn't act like the world is a stage! Let me go fake it cause i am human. There's only one hope not to have a fake that is outside of Jesus. Yes completely accepted. Nothing i devise can make it different. It is difficult to find comfort in the world when pain is always present. Thankful that God hears us when we complain and does not act as if the world is a stage. We can try to escape the pain through pleasure, but it is only temporary. The only hope for something different is through Jesus.