I don't think we ever hold on to God, that was a notable affirmation of the Keswick movement. This taught that the saint normally had a carnal life, but if we refused we could live a victorious Christian life. One of the expressions of this higher life, Christianity, represents letting go and surrender to God.It reminded me of philosophical Buddhism which simply teaches a person that they can erase everything from their conscious mind and achieve a higher state of consciousness.There were also psychologies when I was young that taught us that we have the subconscious. That it was a mystical consciousness in which all unregulated and traumatic experiences were stored. But we know without a doubt if we could possibly attain a conscious state of absence of conscious thoughts which we could not describe as no conscious thought. To say that we do not naturally have thoughts is to say that we think that we do not indirectly experience any thought that correctly represents a thought. And having a subconscious means we have to be responsible for the things we don't choose.Which would exclude our lack of conscious mind or methodological objectivity. It would be silly. This is why letting go is not a good idea in the first place because we cannot let go. As long as we have experience and doubtless remember that we cannot conveniently forget. The obvious truth is that God is holding us.The Bible does not teach Christians to maintain two identities. Salvation guides us to a state of wholeness, so that we become what we are until now. The inspired apostle says that we have been correctly identified in the death and miraculous resurrection of Christ. We cannot become more acceptable. We have been permanently sanctified and imputed with the righteousness of Christ.We must apply ourselves to fully understand the fundamental doctrines.