I have tried to tell you that this life and the answers to problems are easier than what the religious community advises you, I have known this process for a long time, but I think you have to deal with it yourself. When I write on paper, I tell them that it will not do anything in the long run. It is not that hard. I know you are still a Calvinist and it is very tempting to think that there is more to these things than we believe God is sovereign and all that, but I tell you it will help you too Frustration and feelings of guilt lead. Focus on everyone else's behavior and a life of worry and regret. But I assure you you don't have to worry about the behavior of others around you. You can twist and swing your arms to do a few things, but getting someone to transform your heart is still an impossible task. It's too tedious and time consuming. And in the end you get your trivial group and all of your petty rules.But you have been so far from God that you can no longer see your way through the forest. That's where you want to go, so that's fine. Provoke me a little, I know it will fail and I am waiting for you to come back.  

So it's easy, it's tough. When you're in trouble, the answer is prayer. I know he doesn't ask anything of you. At that time, God did it. But then we hardly evade the responsibility you have communicated to us. Go ahead and think about it. Go ahead and buy the paper back all over again. I've been doing this for a long time, and frankly, it doesn't work.There is only one lesson in life that matters. Yes, all of you guys and gals who graduated from high school have all of these goals. Is it that hard? Everyone cares about meeting that boy and girl and then you stick to their standards. I know. I was there. It was all silly. I miss the gold treasure through the trees. In my little world. I was in full control.The most valuable lesson I received was that I was dependent and just needed an elegant and direct relationship. That was Jesus, this morning and middle-aged now, he is Jesus forever. It definitely goes to Jesus. In the morning I go to Jesus for lunch and the rest of the night I go to Jesus to have dinner with Jesus. It means falling in love with Jesus quickly. That's right, it's not a really difficult search for something. Once you grow profitably in genuine love for Jesus, you will. Of course there are innumerable people who love Jesus and don't try too hard. No guilt, no legitimate worries, and no lingering shame. But of course you want to make it difficult for yourself, I know.
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