You seem to be fixated on Gods communication directly to you. This is terribly complex because when we are dealing in the inanimate world there are so man unexplained variations of communication. Maybe the messages we imagine that we hear are from our view of what we imagine we are. And i think that we spend alot of time thinking that we can examine our own hearts by trying to figure out by imagining who we are in light of our limited knowledge of who we really are before God. And if we could see ourselves as God sees us then compare that to how we view ourselves we could see how much our imagination is determined by the physical nature of our view of who we really are.

That is why in communication we view things in chiefly in a vocal sense. We imagine that how we receive an idea is through hearing chiefly. Gods essence far succeeds those physical communicable properties in the inanimate world of words. So what we imagine  communication to be is very limited. Our view of communication comes in a connection between to self conscious creations. Our views in that relationship of receiving through our ears creates its own reality of who we think we are as social creatures. Our view of who God is comes from our sense of how we view our earthly relationships.

But Gods communication is so much greater than any thing we could imagine it to be. And really in order for us to have a true sense of Gods nature we must think outside the box, we must view God as beyond and outside of our limited ability of receiving messages and giving messages. God sorta engulfs our imagined views of what we are thinking He is saying to us. His communication to us transpires in more of a vacuum created by His communicable properties. Its as if an atomic bomb went off and we were disintegrated in the vacuum of that powerful blast, not even receiving the heat from it. In Gods presence communicated we become very confused. We become over whelmed. We become weak. AR

Our view of ourselves has very little to do with what really is in light of Gods view of who we are. And we spend alot of time trying to figure out what we are good at and areas we have difficulty in. Our mode of living or the health of our thinking patterns is created by the imagination of our self reflection that is so corrupted with preconceived views of these physical communicable properties that we fail to view ourselves in light of Gods inconceivable communicable abilities.